Terry " The lingering shadow of 75"
The Rebel:- Terry may I begin by offering my warmest condolences for what you have been through. However tuning to graver matters, the generation of 1914 will also pass away, and with that sadly the bunch of villians the G.B are, as history doesn't seem to be teaching the flock anything.
So how do the G.B get away with it?
Why do the G.B still have followers?
Well, in my opinion our old friends the G.B are always offering honors and titles such as" pioneers" " ministerial servants" and the must be won award for a male, the title of " Elder"
All you have to do to get one of these awards is read the literature, except current truth and then you are the envy of the congregation. Of course if you think more than you should, and don't walk the walk and talk the talk, these awards will be taken from you.
Occasionaly some sister, or aspiring elder will wake up and get themselves mixed up with "worldly thinking" which as your O.P clarifies can lead to tragic consequences, or it can i hope more often than not lead to a successful and happy life.
Anyway I am no great loss to the watchtower. But you Terry would have been a watchtower star had you remained inside, so I hope you appreciate what an articulate and meaningful voice for thousands you are on the outside.
The Rebel